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Articles:
Hopelessly Devoted
"Being
a fan is like having your own personal time machine."
It was a little
after 5 A.M. on May 26th in my home in Hong Kong when Jerry
Dudek, the Polish goalkeeper of Liverpool Football Club, saved a
penalty from Andriy Shevchenko, a Ukrainian playing for AC
Milan. The save ended the most exciting sporting event you
could ever see, secure for Liverpool the top European soccer
championship for the first time in 21 years and allowed me to
breathe. Within seconds, my wife had called from London, and the
e-mails started to flood in - the first from Time's Baghdad
bureau, others from Sydney, London, Washington and New York
City. In my fumbled excitement, I misdialed my brother's phone
number three times. Then Steven Gerrard, Liverpool's captain,
lifted the trophy, and behind the Cantonese chatter of the TV
commentators I could jest make out 40,000 Liverpudlian voices
singing their club's anthem, You'll Never Walk Alone.
That's when I started to cry.
Apart from the big,
obvious things - love, death, children - most of the really
walloping emotional highs and lows of my life have involved
watching Liverpool. There was the ecstasy of being in the crowd
when the club won the European championship in 1978, and the
horror of settling down in my office for 1985 European
championship game - only to watch Juventus fans get crushed to
death when some Liverpool supporters rioted. Through long
experiences, my family has come to know that their chances of
having a vaguely pleasant husband and father on any given Sunday
depend largely on how Liverpool fared the previous day. But what
on earth makes this - het's admit it - pretty unsophisticated
devotion to the fortunes of men I've never met and don't really
want to so powerful?
Fandon
- the obsessional identification with a sports team - is
universal. The greatest book ever on the psychology of being a
fan. Nick Hornby's Fever Pitch, was written about a
London soccer team but easily translated into a film about the
Boston Red Sox. Particularly in the U.S., it seems possible to
be a fan of a team that's based far away from where you have
ever lived, but I suspect the origins of my obsession are more
common. I didn't have much choice in the matter. both my parents
were born in a tiny row of houses a stone's throw from
Liverpool's stadium. my father took me to my first game as a
small child, and from the moment I saw what was behind the
familiar exterior - All those people! That wall of noise! - I
was hooked.
We fans like to be
describe our passion in religious terms, as if the places our
heroes play were secular cathedrals. It's easy to see why. When
you truly, deeply love a sports team, you give yourself up to
the something bigger than yourself, not just because your
individuality is rendered insignificant in the mass of the crowd
but also because being a fan involves faith. No matter what its
current form may be, your team is worthy of blind devotion.
Belief is all. As Brooklyn Dodgers fans said in the 1950s: Wait
till next year.
But as you get
older, it becomes harder to believe. Yes, the Dodgers won the
World Series in 1955, but they aren't ever coming back from Los
Angeles. Loss of faith can set in. That, however, is when you
appreciate the deeper benefits of being a fan. For me, following
one soccer team has been the connective tissue of my life. I
left Liverpool to go to college and have never had the slightest
desire to live there again, but wandering around the world,
living in seven different cities on three continents, my passion
was the thing that gave me a sense of what home meant.
Being a fan became a fixed point, wherever I lived. It was - it
is - one of the two or three things that I think of as making
me, well, me.
But
fandom does more than defeat distance and geography. It acts as
a time machine. there is only one thing I have done consistently
for nearly 50 years, and that is support Liverpool. To be a
fan is a blessing, for it connects you as nothing else can to
childhood, and to everything and everyone that marked your life
between your time as a child and the present. So when i sat in
Hong Kong at dawn watching the championship game on TV, I didn't
have to try to manufacture the tiny, inconsequential strands
that make up my life. They were all around me. Tea at my
Grandma's after a game: a favorite uncle who died too young;
bemused girlfriends who didn't get it (I married the one who
did); the 21st birthday cake that my mother iced in Liverpool's
colors; my tiny daughters in there first club shirts; the best
friends with whom I've long lost touch. What does being a sports
fan mean? I means you'll never walk alone.
Story Written by Michael Elliot, TIME Magazine
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